Srećko Jamnišek 1931-2010

A sad day.

Mr. Srecko Jamnisek, a great guy that, among other great things, started AIESEC in Belgrade and Yugoslavia back in 1953, passed away.

Starting AIESEC in Yugoslavia 57 years ago was a huge thing – that was the first time that such innovative and self-governing movement was allowed in one communist country. I suppose I can even go a bit further and say that it sparkled AIESEC offices and youth networking and leadership development in many other communist countries.

Mr. Jamnišek was inducted to AIESEC Alumni Hall of Fame in 2003. at 50th birthday of AIESEC in Yugoslavia.

Profile of the inductee below copied from aiesec.org:

Srečko Jamnišek

Date of Birth: 8th of February, 1931

Home Country: Slovenia

AIESEC RECORDS
:: Founder of LC Beograd and AIESEC in the Former Socialist Republic of Yugoslavia NCP of AIESEC in the Former Socialist Republic of Yugoslavia 1952-1954
:: Traineeship in the UK, 1954
:: Honorary member of AIESEC Alumni Club in Slovenia

ACHIEVEMENTS
In the early 50’s establishing an exchange program in a communist country with Western Europe and other countries. In 1953 he realized approximately 100 exchanges.

Srečko Jamnišek worked as the Export Director in a 12,000 employee steel company in Zenica, Bosnia in 1955-1959, after which he moved to Emo Celje, Slovenia. In his time as the Export Director and Commercial Director of Emo Celje (1959-1967) the company started taking AIESEC trainees.
He extended the market of EMO Celje to Germany, Iran, Kuwait, Syria, Nigeria. Lebanon, Jamaica, Cote D’Ivore, Ghana.

He worked as the General Manager of the Intertrade subsidiary in Prague and later in Slovenia as the Intertrade’s General Manager for Europe.
In 1979 he started leading the Rep office of Ljubljanska Banka in Germany, in 1982 he became the CEO of Ljubljanska Banka Združena Banka and in 1986 the General Manager of a Rep office of Ljubljanska banka in Germany again.

In 1982 he wrote a proposal to government about a law on joint ventures of foreign investors in Yugoslavia. In 1991 he wrote another proposal to government of Slovenia concerning a law about privatization of Slovenian enterprises.

Several times he has organized charity events to support clinics in Ljubljana.

Download Srecko Jamnisek’s Profile here [PDF Format]

Mr. Jamnišek, thank you for starting something that eventually changed mine and lives of thousands of people in ex-Yugoslavia.

Rest in peace.

Photo: bobbymcferrin.com

Remember Bobby McFerrin, the world famous author of “Don’t worry, be happy” song?

Well, if you are aware of him and his work, you also know that he is more then just a singer. His style and approach is very unconventional and his music cannot really be put under any of the genres, which makes him unique and which brought him 10 Grammy awards, invites to play with most famous orchestras in the worlds etc.

But not only… Recently he got an invitation to participate at the World Science Forum and its Panel “Notes and Neurons – Search for the Common Chorus”, which aimed to find answers on questions like “Is our response to music hard-wired or culturally determined?” or “Is the reaction to rhythm and melody universal or influenced by environment?” as well as to illustrate “music’s note-worthy interaction with the brain and our emotions”.

And he did it in his own way. They told him that not everyone is musical. His answer was to show the power of pentatonic scale:

See full coverage of the panel here.

Now, this video is fun to watch for anyone, but if you think a little bit about it, it’s much much more. It shows how wrong and limiting our education system is… Imagine if education was there to really support your creativity and not to limit it within the curriculum made in 1960. or whenever… Imagine if teachers were talking to us instead of lecturing us?

Pic: nwrc.sk.ca

Internal CSR, or being responsible to your own employees is equally important as being responsible externally and communicating it.
Depending on your business, that can mean anything from allowing them to have unions, have fair compensation and benefit systems, growth opportunity, security, but also quite often their own safety.

However, it’s just not good when you overdo it. I bumped into this example at sustainabilityforum.com and found it very disturbing.
I mean, keeping your employees safe is one thing, but having a policy not allowing them to help someone not to be beaten up brutally is something else…

Check it out below. Conclusion is after the video.

The Potential Brutality of CSR

Written By Chris Milton
Published On February 12, 2010

There’s a reason I’ve not put any picture with this post: because there’s a video at the bottom.

I think you should watch this video. It’s just over seven minutes long.

It’s of a news item from CNN in the USA last night.

It shows CCTV footage of a girl getting beaten up and having her head kicked in at a bus station in Seattle, Washington.

Then there’s the three (four? five??) security guards who watch this happen. Clearly within arm’s reach.

This is terrible, says the commentator. Surely as decent human beings, maybe even fathers, they should intervene and stop this brutality?

The attacker even returns for afters and is unhindered.

Why didn’t they intervene? Because there is a policy, apparently, that security guards do not intervene in violent confrontations. Difficult to swallow that one.

So on comes a guest, a Sergent from the local police force, who steps through this policy and explains why it’s there and that, once the fight had finished, over 60 officers attended the scene.

Then at the very end the presenter thanks the Sergent for his time and for explaining it to them.

So that’s OK then.

Now, why am I posting this on a CSR blog?

Simple. The reason these guys didn’t intervene is because they had a policy to follow. Tick boxes, insurance (no doubt) and all of that.

And this has subverted their normal human behaviour.

CSR and sustainability is all about reinventing business: it’s not a standard to acheive, it’s a model to follow on a path of continual improvement.

The tick-boxers and standard acheivers in the CSR world are little better than these security guards: watching disaster happen infront of them “satisfied” that they are following their professional protocols.

No one, not even a member of the public, intervenes. But it’s the security guards who are best placed to do so.

We all want to be on the side of the defenseless, the impoverished, the disadvantaged and the downtrodden. However, we — as people — have to act for that to happen, not just implement a policy and think that’s the best we can do.

Needless to say, those of a sensitive nature may prefer not to watch the video, and please be sensible with minors. The video can also be watched here: http://www.cnn.com/2010/CRIME/02/11/seattle.beating/

Please watch it. Now.

Conclusion:
Personally and as an HR professional, I blame this not only on the company policy, but also on the corporate culture that they obviously have. I mean, this culture has to be very passive-defensive and very strong to change (in my opinion) basic human behavior to react in such circumstances. Or all of these 3 guys are simply bad people…
I hope that the kid is fine…

So, what happened was that a friend bought a Toshiba laptop with Windows Vista pre-installed and with a free upgrade to Windows 7 Home Premium Edition. A free upgrade sounds very good, especially since Win7 is far better option then Vista, easier to use, faster, more secure etc…
And doing the actual upgrade should be really easy, shouldn’t it? I mean, the year is 2010, even in Serbia a lot of people have a good internet connection and downloading the upgrade file should not be a big deal… Or the company itself should offer free upgrade service to it’s clients. Not a big deal really…

However, it is not that easy as it sounds, apparently… He was told that he will be contacted regarding the upgrade and 2 weeks later he was contacted by DHL and gets this:

If you can’t see it properly, it’s a ~77 EUR bill, and it came with an information that you additionally have to pay customs, VAT and if you don’t have your own carrier, they will use their daughter company (or something) and will charge you extra 5.000 RSD (~50 EUR).
Simple math told him that this “free” upgrade will cost him around 14.000 RSD (~140 EUR) which is 2.000 RSD (~20 EUR) more then buying a Full Home Premium version od Win7 in Belgrade. Just how stupid and illogical does this sound?
Of course, he sent them an e-mail to return the shipment…

I don’t know anyone in Toshiba Serbia, but would be cool if this post somehow reaches someone there, and would be even more cool if that someone contacted me to get this friend’s contacts and actually tried to fix this problem (regardless of who in the chain has actually failed).

(Funnily enough, this example came just in time when a company I work for is pointing out customer centricity as one of our major focuses, so I’ll use this as a very good example)

Source: ashleycecil.com

Lately I had many conversations and debates with colleagues from my company regarding the social media in general, and especially their use at work. By colleagues I mean not only HR people but also people from Risk mgmt, corporate banking etc.
Yeah, kinda forgot to mention – for those that don’t know me that good – am working for a large CEE Bank, both on national (training and development in Serbia) and international level (various programs).

Now, for a GenY representative close to GenX by age, working in a Banking Group, no matter how modern it is, is already a huge challenge. Banks are meant to be safe and secure, so there are so many procedures and rules that simply piss me off sometimes.
I mean, I do understand why there is a need for rules in a Bank, of course, but it looks like that people sometimes invent them just to be able to both defend themselves for being inefficient and to be able to make more steps in the process and make it pretty much ineffective. Not to mention that quite often security means locking computers but not educating people to delete important data from shared folders etc…
In conversations I mentioned earlier, I got feedback that all social media networks have to be forbiden on all computers during working hours, because they are such a distraction. Others were amazed that I constantly have TweetDeck started with twitter, facebook and linkedin feeds moving on the screen all the time. They told me that when I get older I won’t be able to have such concentration.

And these guys are probably right. Social media are a huge distraction. And it’s definitely not easy to follow feeds from 3 different services with who knows how many different topics, while at the same time being focused on the 3 full days offline meeting with 10-20 people in the same room.

It is not easy for them. I understand and accept.

However, for myself, this is not just an ability to do 2 things at the same time. For me social media is the way of living, in a way. Twitter, Facebook, Linkedin are tools, not just platforms to play Farmville or Treasure hunt and other games, or to put your half-naked photos of last nights party or even to fulfil your voyeristic needs…
And no, I’m not a freak. I just use all of these networks for every day business… On that particular meeting, I was following a hashtag of people tweeting from some conference…
Of course, I do understand that not everyone is this deep into social media and ethics at the same time, so I do have realistic expectations, but I still think that forbidding social media at work is a bad idea. People should be educated how to use it properly and you can easily have all your employees as strong advocates of your brand online.

(Not to be understood wrongly – many older employees easily hop on this high-tech-social-media train, however I’ve put emphasis on GenY-ers as they are all into it)

Now, allow me to try to give you an overview of how social media can be used, in HR in particular.

Recruitment
Most obvious and the most used scenario is recruitment – almost all recruiters are nowadays using linkedin and facebook to both search for candidates, as well as to do a background check on them.
However, most of them are not doing that properly. God knows how many times have I been contacted for jobs I simply don’t fit into (not all people in banks are financial analysts ).
Also, recruiters should set all prejudices aside before screening candidates, because candidate’s political views or crazy party photos are not something that really affects business directly (unless you are a human rights organization and his profile picture is with KKK hat .

Free tip: instead of being so narrow, try to dig a bit deeper. Point is – don’t search for negative content (because you will find it for sure), but on the contrary – check if his online behavior fits into your corporate culture, check if he is active in groups that promote the same values like your company. Check his interests too, and compare them to those he wrote in the CV – see which ones he expresses the most, and chances are that you are very close to his social profile.

Retention
Even if most of the social media buzz in HR world is about recruitment, it doesn’t end there. Far from that, as a matter of fact…

You noticed that these youngsters that you are hiring lately are not playing the same game as you did back in the days, right? They seem to arrogant, often ignorant, no respect for formal authorities? Yup, I know, not easy to handle…
But you know what? in most cases, it is not their fault. You are the one that threw them on the road that doesn’t fit their tires. Don’t get it? Did you try driving a Smart car offroad? You just don’t do that…

Free tip: prepare a fitting working place for them. Every generation needs different environment to feel comfortable, so they do too. Their environment is high-tech, with flexible working hours and connectivity everywhere. For you a Blackberry or Iphone is something that by hierarchy only top managers get, while for them it’s just one of the basic, default tools. Also, they erased the dividing line between private and business life and are using their private networks in everyday business all the time (example: hey, do you know anything about this training company? -umm, I think that this company used them earlier this year, lemme check! (he msgs his friend in this company and minutes later info is there)).

If you now think that your company is “not that old-fashioned”, because you have modern structure, training programs, advertising etc. please check out the latest shift:

What do you think now? Do your employees feel “fit” in the working environment you are offering? Are they satisfied enough not to consider all the headhunters calling all the time?

Think again.

Now stop thinking and act.

…to be continued…

First is long waited abolishment of visas for Schengen zone for Serbia, Macedonia and Montenegro, or in other words all EU countries except UK. What this means for Serbian people cannot be translated in words, really…
Most of my readers probably don’t know that 20 years ago Serbian (well, Yugoslav at that time) famous “red passport” was among the most respected in the world. Yugoslav people could travel freely to most of the countries of the world etc.
Balkan wars and sanctions did the thing and in last 2 decades borders of most of the countries were closed for Serbs (in order to stop refugees and immigrants), and getting visa was for most countries so tough that we often felt really helpless…
I mean, when they ask you to bring confirmations that you are paying taxes regularly (along with the actual amounts), or to confirm that you don’t want to immigrate to this certain country by submitting proofs that you own real estate in Serbia and also salary slips of all family members, then you really feel small and pathetic… and you are not sure anymore if you want to go to this country or not…
Myself, I consider myself a very lucky person, because being an Internally Displaced Person (IDP) in such Serbia is definitely not an asset However, I started working early (when I was 19) and could support myself for travelling quite a lot in last 10 years, and was really lucky to get proper support for visas when I needed them the most (and couldn’t really prove to consulates that I’m not a potential immigrant). Support from relevant individuals and institutions, that is…

All this resulted into almost 70% of people in Serbia not even having a passport! Can you imagine that?

Therefore, this abolishment of visas means much easier traveling for us. Not only that we don’t need visas, but also the prices are going down… Low cost airline companies are already announcing flights from Belgrade so for example a return ticket to Vienna is not anymore 300 EUR but around 100 EUR…

As soon as it was announced, people on twitter got crazy with planning the trips for new years and Christmas, so I think that only Slovenians will be in Belgrade on December 31st (traditionally there are thousands of tourists from Slovenia in Belgrade for new year eve)

There’s another joke already: “Last one that leaves Serbia on December 19th should turn off the light!”

Read more at:
EU scraps visas for three Balkan states
The EU has granted visa-free travel for citizens of three Balkan countries – Macedonia, Montenegro and Serbia.
From 19 December citizens of the three former Yugoslav republics who hold biometric passports will not need visas to enter the borderless Schengen area.
Read the rest here…

Second big thing happening is Kosovo case debate at International Court of Justice in The Hague.
Everyone basically knows the story – Kosovo unilateral proclaimed independence, Serbia rejects it, around 60 countries recognized it so far, and then Serbia managed to move this fight from political to legal/judicial arena, so Int. Court of Justice is supposed to give an opinion now.
This opinion is not something obligatory whatsoever but it is a big thing anyways.

If you are not convinced that it is a big thing, let me just tell you that 29 UN member countries are going to debate this topic for 10 days, including all Security Council members, and it is going to be the first time the China is giving an official opinion before this Court.

Regardless of the process and results, this is a big thing for Serbia and Serbs. It’s a step. We still don’t know in which direction, but it is a step forward!

Read more here…

And then again – I am sure that both of these are taking us forward!
Have never been so sure, to be honest…

Photo by http://goserbia.com

7000 fans did the thing again

Dragana kind of sparkled everything couple of weeks ago, and now Pedya chose a right moment (we took enough time to swallow the whole idea) to start the engine, and here we are…

Several volunteers already offered very concrete help, so please read comments in Pedya’s post and think about ideas… (google translate version in english is here)

Let’s paint this map in beautiful colors!

Thursday, 18:00, Belgrade, Restaurant El Toro

One more remark, for the skeptical ones:

Image by http://www.gapingvoid.com/

Photo found @ http://damienkatz.net

There’s hope!

Dragana Djermanovic wrote at her blog (only in Serbian, here’s google translate version of her post – link) emotionally about Serbia’s poor brand, about our illogical attitude to look towards past instead of future etc. She compared 2 approaches to promoting something – one is Serbia @ CNN with promoting our historical values (mainly orthodox churches) and second one Kosovo @ TV, Facebook, Twitter etc. promoting people and the future.
Now it’s clear that approach of government of Kosovo is the right one – looking towards future is always better then in the past, promotes young people, young nation, it is colorful etc.
The only issue is – it is as wrong just as the Serbia’s one… It deceives and it is not true. No further analysis needed. Full stop.

Now, who doesn’t know Dragana or doesn’t follow her blog doesn’t really know that she is like.no.other Serbian lady – trying to move things regarding this topic for some time already. She was active on round tables, contacted Ministries, initiated talks among many of us, but in the end she had no luck so far. We all silently nodded while reading her blog posts, or we loudly hated everything she criticized, but that’s about it… Of course, am a bit generalizing, there are for sure some good folks that tried to help her, but in the bottom line – no visible success whatsoever.

But we are a weird nation, we function really in mysterious ways… We had to wait until we could almost feel Dragana’s tears at her blog in order to move our asses and offer initiative, help, whatever…
Or is it Kosovo’s big.awesome.lie that moved us?

In any case, her post caught me off-guard. Am working on my behavior last couple of weeks to become more focused on solutions and while reading her post, I realized I’m thinking about the topic with negative attitude – trying to find out why something doesn’t work and why it is impossible to change it Very Serbian, huh?
But I had to offer a solution, and knowing that people reading her blog are bunch of a cool and smart people, I couldn’t think of a better one but to initiate a meeting of all of them.
Simple idea, but in my opinion it should work – these bright people are meeting often anyways, they know each other, so one thematic meeting could sparkle more then we hope for…
I can already see @Pedya generating ideas on @NovinarskaPatka blog. I wish he takes active role in that idea he proposes, at least with his ingenious drawings that we remember from famous Svet Kompjutera magazine.

What’s my point here?

Again – simple. We need one Radomir Antic in every aspect of our lives, apparently. First he gave us hope with his endless energy, then he brought all the best players together, brought authority and the system and here you go – Serbia is on Fifa World Cup in South Africa and more importantly the fans are so happy now that they don’t have a need to boo at opponent’s national anthems anymore! In just a few months he did it! And he did it with almost the same team other coaches had… How? he just knew how to restructure and direct the huge amount of energy we are spending anyways into a right direction.
We are a very strange nation…
But I believe in us!

Dragana moved us – now let’s meet and see what the next steps and who can do what…
Is that a specialized blog promoting Serbia to foreigners?
Is that something that promotes beautiful Serbia to us, Serbs?
Is that influencing our nation to change attitude, way of thinking, behaviors? How?
Is it all of that?
Is it something else? Something more?

Do you want to help? Please join us in person (still working on a date, let us know at http://twtpoll.com/3znx0q) or leave a comment here…

No further due, but this text has moved even the most optimistic myself.
My apologies to my readers that can’t understand Serbian – the text is originally in Serbian and I don’t feel really competent to translate it myself. However, you can still use http://translate.google.com.

Nekad i sad
by Bojan

Volim more. Valjda zato što sam rođen u gradu na moru i što sam imao tu sreću da svake godine idem tamo. Nikad se nisam navikao na grad na reci niti zavoleo reke kao što ih ljudi vole. Ali, ako već moram da biram, onda mi je Sava draža od Dunava. Pitomija je a i bliža je mom kraju. Uvek sam imao fobiju od mutne vode, od toga da ne vidim šta je na dnu, po čemu gazim i ka čemu ronim. More me je uvek smirivalo i držalo me spokojnim da sam bio u stanju da zaronim kao u Big Blue i nikad ne izronim. Taj grad, ex Yu grad, iako u njemu nisam proveo mnogo godina, mi nedostaje ponekad. U stvari to je čisto projektovanje za »onim« vremenima. Kao SFRJ dete koje se rodilo, živelo i vaspitavalo u tom duhu, nikad nisam mogao do kraja da se ubacim u nacionalistički trip busača grudi.

Uvek sam na to gledao kao na nekog ko je živeo u državi New York, a onda su jednog dana došli neki likovi i rekli da ja više nisam Amerikanac već Njujorkanac, da moram da mrzim iz dna duše sve Teksašane, a posebno one iz Kalifornije. Da sam prodana duša i izdajnik svoje državice ako slučajno i maštam o letovanju na ostrvima Key West ili ne daj Bože zimovanju u Koloradu. Da u svoj rečnik uvedem reči ubi i zakolji, mrzim i narod sa neba. Da u životu svom mi ne padne na pamet da pustim neku dobru jazz ili blues muziku, već da skakućem po nekoj pijačnoj tezgi uz neki dobar folk. Samo tako mogu da budem IN, da ostanem među ostalim Njujorkancima i da budem proud to be Ali kako? Do juče sam bio ponosni Amerikanac koji je se naježi svaki put kada čuje Star Spangled Banner, koji lumpovanjima po gradu proslavlja svaku titulu i zlatnu medalju, kome je bilo normalno da živi i radi u NY a da letuje i zimuje diljem lijepe naše. Ne. Sada je samo, najbolje a naše uz neke nove, čudne Star Spangled Banner i uz sve češće prizivanje onozemaljskih sila, jer smo mi, jadni mali Njujorkanci ipak narod from the sky. Nekako, nije mi ulazilo u glavu zašto sad ja moram da idem tamo negde u šume i močvare Misisipija i pucam na neke tamo koji mi ništa nisu skrivili u životu. Zašto ja više ne mogu da pređem ni kanadsku granicu bez bar kofera papira i dokumenata? Zašto me svi gledaju čudno na svakoj toj granici kao da sam masovni ubica i kao da mi iz usta viri nečija krvava lobanja? Zašto? Šta je falilo mojoj Amerikici? Ništa. Naprotiv.

Imali smo sve i bilo nam je super. Laže ko kaže da nije bilo tako. Nije bilo krvi, nije bilo mrtvih, silovanih, zaklanih, spaljenih kuća, izbeglih, ludih, nije bilo straha, nije bilo osećaja nesigurnosti i bede. Nije. Nije to bila ni kapitalistička zemlja a nije ni bila gvozdena zavesa. Bila je neka malo tvrđa sredina, ali sredina. Radiš, živiš, putuješ, uživaš, mirno spavaš. A onda su došli neki bolesni umovi i rešili da to više ne može tako i za čas posla je sve nestalo kao balon od sapunice. Koliko je zaista lako nešto uništiti i srušiti. Izgleda da niko toga nije bio svestan. A možda i jeste.

Te godine, godine nove Amerikice, su bile nešto što samo može da se zaboravi i da se gurne ispod tepiha. Da se izbriše gumicom i da se nikad više ne priča o tome. Samo nekoliko godina ranije, podsećanje na prethodnu godinu bi izgledalo ovako:
Nova godina u Rimu, prolećni šoping u Veneciji, leto na Hvaru ili Braču, zima na Bledu ili Jahorini.

Kola na kredit i plata na vreme.

Poslednjih godina to je izgledalo ovako:
Nova godina uz sveće i ćebad, prolećno dovlačenje kobasica i toalet papira iz Segedina, leto na Adi, zima uz sveće i ćebad. Kola u kvaru ili u redu za benzin. Plate nema.

I sad, ne znam kako neko može da kaže da u »ono« vreme nije bilo dobro. Ja možda zvučim previše nostalgično, ali mislim da je to samo žal za NORMALNIM životom. Za spokojnim i srećnim životom, za nasmejanim ljudima i za jednom globalnom opuštenošću. Opuštenošću u svemu. Muzici, filmovima pa i knjigama. Vesela muzika, vesela garderoba, vesele frizure, veseli filmovi. Kakvo je vreme na globalnom planu dovoljno je da se pogleda neka Top 10 muzička lista spotova i to je to. Neko reče, a gde je nestao Nick Kershaw iz naših života. Da, zaista. Sve to što se desilo je palo na nas kao giljotina, užasno brzo sa užasnom preciznošću da ni bol ne može da se oseti. Bol dolazi kasnije.

13.03.2002.

Šta da kažem? Dokle sa tom NADOM (lažnom)? Ja zaista ne vidim ko može sada posle svega da sjebe ta govna. Neću da kažem da je kasno, ali mi sve to sada zvuči suviše licemereno i patetično. Nisu znali prekjuče ko je odgovoran za silna ubistva i ostala sranja a danas znaju. I ti likovi sa kojima su se oni talili 5. oktobra da ovi ne krenu na narod, talili se oko šverca pljuga i svega ostalog, sada će isti ti likovi da se bore protiv svojih polu-ortaka. Izvinite, ali meni je gospodo to jako smešno što pričate. Ko? Čedomiri, Mihajlovići, Živkovići? By the way, gde se tu pominje surčinski klan, zvezdarski klan, dorćolski klan, gde se tu spominje Mirko Marjanović, Dragan Tomić, Mira Marković sa decom, Gorica Gajević, Ivica Dačić i još hiljade onih imena kojih ne želim ni da se sećam. Gde su svi oni ove 3 godine? Pa utalili ste se sa svima njima a sad kad su vas uhvatili za jaja glumite neki holivud i Ramba, kao sjebaćemo ih sve. Nije nego. Meni je sve to tragikomično. I tužno i jadno i bedno. Ne mogu da verujem da njega više nema, znam da je muljao sa istim tim krimosima, ali ga pravdam da je morao na finjaka sve zbog naroda. I sad posle svega da se nadamo da će se Srbija očistiti od te stoke. Daj Bože, ali ne verujem. Ja sam od juče izgubio svaku nadu, i osećam se da su moja nadanja zalivena armiranim betonom i prelivena čelikom.

Znaš, starije generacije su imale nešto od života i danas neko bledo sećanje na lepa vremena, a moja generacija se vraćala u plastičnim kesama kući. Stražario sam sa praznom puškom ‘92/’93 na granici sa Bosnom u nekim šumama iznad Drine i nadao se da ću preživeti. I jesam. Neki nisu. Najbolji ortak mi je po povratku ‘92 završio u Lazi, ortak iz kraja se vratio u limenom sanduku. Onda smo se nadali da ćemo preživeti ‘93. I jesmo. Neki nisu. Pa je došao novi dinar ‘94, pa smo se nadali da će biti bolje. I bilo je malo bolje. Nekima nije. Pa onda Knin i traktorske kolone, pa protest ‘96/’97 gde su nas prodali, sedeli kod onog majmuna na kanabetu i utalili se. Jebeš 3 meseca smrzavanja, jebeš prebijene ljude i zatvarane, jebeš sve, zaboraviće ljudi. Nadali smo se da će možda i biti nešto od toga. Pa bombardovanje, pa nada da ćemo preživeti. Preživeli smo. Neki nisu. Kako je onima u Aleksincu, Kuršumliji, Prištini, Kosovu? A onda 5. oktobar i nada da će svi oni govnari završiti kako dolikuje, na banderi na Terazijama. A kada sam posle par dana video debelo, klempavo govno kako nas obaveštava da ide da se odmori sa unukom Markom shvatio sam da je tu samo još jedan tal i deal po sredi. I da će pre ili kasnije isplivati govna na površinu. I jesu. Žalosno je mnogo. Sve.

I mi od toga sto znamo da je ono GOVNO u Hagu krivo za sve nemamo ništa. Krivi su i ovi, i to je fakat. Krivi su sto su ispali sise pa su se talili misleći da nije to tako strašno, da će svako da uzme po parče već očerupanog kolača i nikom ništa. Ali kad su videli da je vrag odneo salu i da ovi sad hoće mnogo veći deo nego što im pripada onda su se usrali. Ne znam, samo se pitam koliko ta NADA ima života više i dokle se više nadati u prazno. Svi su potkupljeni, od portira na ulazu do sudija i predsednika. Svi. I gde naći nekog ko će dići vojsku i policiju i iskoristiti ovo stanje da se sjebe što više govana je moguće. Iskreno ne verujem uopšte u tako nešto, ali se i dalje mazohistički kao pravi srbin NADAM. Jedino što ja imam tu “sreću” da posle 11 godina svih sranja i posle svega što smo tamo proživeli, prvi put pratim tako nešto sa distance od 5000 milja.

A najgore mi je od svega što shvatam koliko smo mazohistički narod, i da bez obzira što se osećam da NADE više nema, imam neki mali crv u mozgu koji mi govori biće nešto. Mada, tako mi je govorio i onih 10 godina pa je bilo jedno veliko ništa. Nisam imao tu sreću da me mama i tata naprave sredinom ili krajem 60-ih. Imao sam nesreću da pripadam jednoj od najnesrećnijih generaćiji u istoriji. Jer, ovi klinci pamte samo sranja, sancćije, prazne prodavnice, ratove, tako da je njima sad sa 17-18-19 godina do jaja, njima je ovo najbolje okruženje u kom se živelo, oni za bolje ne znaju. I njima je sve to normalno, a da li znaju šta znači normalno? A šta je nama bilo normalno i do koje granice smo savijali kičmu i trpeli sranja.

Normalan život nam je postao ako stignemo na red za hleb i mleko.
Normalan život nam je da imamo struje bar 5 dana u nedelji. Normalan život nam je da primimo platu.
Normalan život nam je da švercujemo kobasice iz Segedina. Trst? Rim? London? NYC? Šta to beše?
Normalan život je da letovanje otplaćujemo pola godine (u nekoj vašljivoj sobi na vrh brda) a o zimovanju samo maštamo. Normalan život je da se voziš smrdljivim GSB-om i da si srećan do jaja ako sedneš.
Normalan život je da ako jednom u 5 godina odeš na koncert do Budimpešte ti si bogat čovek.
Normalan život je da ako možes da popiješ dva piva (strana) u kafiću mora da si dobio na kladionici.
I onda mi dođe neko i kaže, pa dobro, nemoj da si pesimista, bar imamo struje.
Da li mi znamo sta je normalan život više? Imali smo kartu da se bar nadamo da će jednog dana biti nešto od te nesrećne zemlje, i postalo je normalno ono što i treba da bude normalno, da ima struje, hleba, mleka, benzina, prevoza. Vraćalo se (fakat, sitnim koracima) u neku kakvu-takvu klimavu normalu. Bez sranja, sankcija, da nas ne gledaju kao poslednja govna, da nismo kao Burkina Faso ili Nikaragva.

A šta sad? Šta? Samo da mutavi mutanti, kilavi, spori, mlohavi, dosadni i staromodni “neobavešteni” demagozi ne preuzmu stvari u svoje ruke. Oni neka se vrate u svoju rupu iz koje smo ih mi izvadili. Za bolje i nisu retardirani mutanti.
Ne znam. Znam da mi je mozak tiltovan i da bi valjda trebalo da budem srećan što sam ovde. A sedim sinoć na terasi i ubijam pivo da smirim živce da bih mogao bar malo da odspavam, i čekam da čujem neke sirene, neko pucanje, nasmejem se i pomislim, pa jebote, ja sam u Americi, nisam u Beogradu. Smešno mi a plače mi se. Ne znam više, mozak me boli.

Neka bude. NADAM se (zvanično poslednji put) da će ovi (ko god to bio) očistiti ona govna i oterati ih u tri lepe jednom zauvek. NADAMO se, to nam je jedino i ostalo U suprotnom ako se to ne desi nije potrebno imati mnogo mozga da se skapira sta će biti dalje. Biće šljiva i jedan srbin ispod nje, koji se pita šta se to desilo i NADA se.

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Sada znam… da nade vise nema, niti je bilo.

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